As stories emerge...

Yesterday, Holger and I got to spend the day together.  We are so grateful for our little village who step in to help when we need a “time-out” … 

The joke is that we were mandated to not talk about the kids or we would have to pay for the baby-sitting in Euros. We failed to keep this bargain on both accounts…  we talked about the kids and we cannot pay for the baby sitting!

Holger took me to see the movie GIFTED.  I cried a lot!  I cried mostly because I felt the pain of Frank in attempting to do what is best for Mary, but not quite sure what best is!  I felt for Mary who was removed from her family and put in foster care…  the thing that made this movie so powerful was thinking about how Frank was supposed to act on behalf of a child who was so SPECIAL.  How was he supposed to protect her? 

I have come to a horrible and terrifying realisation in the past few weeks that I have a foster child who has very specialised and heart-breaking needs.  I had thought that her needs were all emotional when I met her in December last year and Holger and I had agreed to foster her…  I had no idea that she would have to have two surgeries in the next few months and lifelong support for her disabilities.  The worst for me is the surgeries could have been avoided if she had not been seriously neglected.  As her story emerges more and more I know we must do more to protect her!

I cried in the movie because I realised that Mary and my little foster daughter both had something in common, they both needed an adult to “fight” for them, to advocate for their rights and to make sure their worlds are kind and compassionate towards them because they are different… being the adult in it is a very scary place.

In the next few days I will make a more public declaration on what I am currently working on, but for now I just want to ask that you would pray for me for wisdom and provision.   I am an adult who thinks she finally knows why she is doing this…